I Would Have Despaired

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I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
14 Wait for the Lord;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the Lord.  Psalm 27 13-14

This scripture was very special to my heart, especially during two of the hardest times of my life and the closest I came to despair.  First and most desperate time, was when I lost my son Casey to a congenital heart defect and second, when I went thru my separation and ultimate divorce.  These were both particularly dark times in my life.  Times when I felt deep despair.  The divorce was hard because I knew that it did not have to happen. I believe that with a lot of hard work and an open heart marriages can and should be saved.  But it takes two not one.

I think despair is probably one of the darkest and saddest place you could find yourself. The scary part is, that people who go there often don’t come back. The dictionary defines despair as “destitute of positive expectations.” If you’re in despair, you can’t see anything good in your life or future. You may find yourself being tempted to give up.

That is exactly, why I love the book of Psalms.  We can glean so much from David, he is such as a good example of avoiding despair.  Instead of surrendering to the darkness of despair, David’s confidence was in an unchanging God. You and I need to do the same, no matter what we are facing.

People will often say, I don’t know how she can be so strong through this . . . and How can he just keep going with everything that’s happening?

But, praise the lord we know the answer to those questions, as we look to David—we need to fix our hope on our promise-keeping God. Psalm 46:10 reminds us to “be still, and know that I am God.”   When you come to that place where you can’t do anything else, you must stand still and just believe. You may think that’s the worst possible place to be, but it’s not.  God loves it when you are there. When you can’t do anything else, we must let God do it all we need to do is fully surrender.  Otherwise we will just throw in the towel.

“We must never despair, because God is always good.” With this promise, you get to see God’s heart. Not only is He with you; not only is He sovereign and ordering the circumstances of your life, but God is also good. God’s goodness is the ultimate rescue net for all of life’s experiences.  No matter what you maybe facing, He is sufficient to rescue us, Because He is Good.

Although, we don’t know what circumstances David was facing when he wrote this psalm, but just look at his concluding statement which is full of faith. David was able to avoid despair by believing he would once again see God’s goodness. David had seen it, and he believed he would see it again. But at that very moment, he had to trust the time would come when he would again see God’s goodness. Why? Because God is good even when we can’t see it.

The reason we often lose hope is because are eyes are not on the Lord.  When our eyes are fully fixed on Him, not on the circumstances, you WILL see His goodness.  It may not be today, but we can join David in believing that we will “see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.”  And that is Good Ver News!

Lord, I want to be just as transparent as David was in voicing all my fears and my anxieties to You and be as bold as he was in trusting You. I know You want to grow in me a faith that will not fail. Help me to remember that when I do falter, You won’t give up on me. Give me eyes to see Your goodness every day of my life. In Jesus’ name I pray, amen.

 

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Author: Cheryl Downum

My name is Cheryl Downum, Divorced in 2015, I moved from Atascadero ca to the Temecula Valley in Socal. As I’ve walked this journey, I’ve found myself growing closer to Jesus. My heart is now infused with empathy for others that find themselves in this place. And, God has given me a story, a message of hope to share. A message birthed in my brokenness that brought forth a sweet-surrendered dependence on God’s unconditional acceptance and love. The reason I am writing this blog is; I have found in my life that the Lord often uses our deepest pain as the launching pad to our deepest calling. My desire is to encourage His children to seek a deeper relationship with our Lord Jesus Christ. I hope that as you read my blog, you will feel inspired and encouraged. Thank you for visiting! God Bless! The Lord has opened a door for me in ministry with women who have been raped/sexually assault or abused by their spouse.  I have become a fulltime Advocate for women with a national organization.  For more information on this exciting chapter in my life, please visit my Healing Heart Blog https://thehealingheartblog.wordpress.com/ I am a Survivor and an Advocate, I am passionate about raising awareness about Rape/Sexual Assault and Domestic Violence. Visit my The healing heart facebook page  https://www.facebook.com/thehealingheart77/

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