Psalm 33:6 says, “By the Word of the Lord the heavens were made, and all the host of them by the breath of His mouth.”
God spoke and the earth was formed out of nothing. How much more do you think God can put the pieces of your life back together? if He can create the universe from nothing?
In the past several months I have been dealing with cancer, surgery and it’s treatments. I have been on bed-rest and frankly, had way to much alone time. Time to think about the last couple years since my divorce. I found myself stuck things just did not make sense to me. There was a span of about a month that went from talking reconciliation, proclamations of love to I want a divorce by email. The explanation given (no face to face or talking on the phone) did not make any sense to me, why? because I knew it was not true. He has always been a person who avoids confrontation and maybe this was just to painful to explain or face. I realize we cannot expect things from people they cannot give. But, one of my biggest challenges has always been that I have an analytical mind, therefore, everything needs to make sense for me to move on.
This got me thinking about my youngest child.
She has always loved puzzle-working and she knows the best puzzles are the ones with lots of small pieces with similar colors, making it a big challenge. Watching her work her puzzles, I have often thought over the course of the last two years how very much like a puzzle our lives are. God fitting each piece of our story together perfectly. The problem was, the pieces of this story did not seem to fit. There was a huge piece missing. It wasn’t so much about moving on from the person as it was making sense of the whole situation and being blindsided. To be fair, We had been struggling since I chose to separate. Making sure I was fully in God’s will. Ever the obedient child who leans to much towards legalism, aww…yet another hurdle in my life. Check!
From my point of view (which is sometimes dangerous), the pieces just didn’t seem to fit. I could not see the completed picture on the outside of the box so I was not sure how these pieces all fit together. But Jesus knows. He has a reason for each one. He is not only a great puzzle maker but he is the best at putting puzzles together even the ones that seem to have no color or life and to us don’t fit. I just love how He causes things to happen, people to meet that HAVE to be in place so some future piece of our puzzle will fit together perfectly..
That is what happened to me, a couple days ago, I thought ok, this is ridiculous I was being inundated with emails from his family criticizing me and saying really hurtful things. I cried, prayed and reached out to a pastor that knows the situation well, in our correspondence the Lord gave me a really precious gift, unbeknownst to him he gave me that missing piece. Suddenly everything made sense, as much as it could anyway. I felt immediately a sense of peace that truly did pass all understanding. Pro 3:5,6 5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,And He shall direct your paths. Would I have liked the outcome to be different, absolutely, I believe every marriage can be restored if both hearts are open. Only problem was that was not our case. Instead the proverbial easy way was taken. But I now had the answers I needed to move on and commit this person and my life to the Lord, and to forgive and ask forgiveness for the part I played.
Every good thing given and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shifting shadow. James 1:17
There have been many of these “divine appointments” or “Gifts” over the last couple years. He has thankfully been so active in my life and journey that I sometimes feel like I am —well, that my life is like a story in a book. It is a kind of paradox really. We are all already a piece of a God sized puzzle but at the same time…. everything shapes us. All the emotions, the joy, the tragedies, the accomplishments, the mistakes, the good days, the hard days, the mundane days all working together for good. Shaping us into what the Lord desires. Romans 8:28
28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
The last couple of years has been quite an education, like being in school with God, He taught me each step of the way, not only what I needed to know but what would help me through at each point along the journey. These lessons were deep and profound. Opening my eyes and heart. Changing me from the inside out. Quieting my soul. Healing me, and not just emotionally, but physically as well.
I am human (and at times neurotic) and though I have learned valuable lessons that have reshaped me, and stretched me, there were times when “the enemy” attacks. There have been weeks, months on end, when he drags my mind through the mire and muck. It is in these times of attack that my past baggage starts resurfacing, hopelessness tries to creep in and present stresses pound in the back of my mind.
It is at these times of difficulty that we acknowledge what it means that He is God. This is all about Him. This is His story. It is about obedience. He is in control and sitting on His throne. I needed to Let Him do his job, completely surrendered to His will no matter what.
Having confidence that the pieces of our lives are slowly all fitting together to create a beautiful picture. Even though we won’t see the completed picture this side of Heaven, we can know the Creator is creating a beautiful picture from the pieces of our one ordinary, messy, beautiful life.
I am so thankful to the Lord who used this pastor to put that last piece of the puzzle together that fit perfectly in my puzzle of life. A pastor that has been patient with me when he did not need to. That spoke the truth with love, that sometimes can be a hard pill to swallow, but is just what we need to hear at just the right time. After all, I am not even part of his flock, although I once was, but I guess I am because we are all brothers and sisters in Christ a family of believers. Hallelujah
You see God was saying all along, “I have the missing piece. It’s a surrendered relationship with me. That is what you have been missing. That is what you have been searching for and didn’t realize it.” All I needed to do was ask and have faith that he would show me the way and heal my brokenheart. But, the Lord, being gracious knew I needed the assurance of that last earthly piece.
David said to the Lord, “My times are in Your hand; deliver me from the hands of my enemies” (Psalm 31:15). I have to remind myself that I have a Creator who designed me, and my life is in His hands. Only He knows where every piece belongs.
The Bible provides a wonderful message to the brokenhearted. Psalm 34:18 says,“The Lord is near to the broken hearted and saves the crushed in spirit.”
Psalm 147:3, “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.”
The Apostle Peter said something that really resonates with all of this: “Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator.” (1 Peter 4:19). Sometimes it is God’s will that we are broken for a time, as it was in Job’s case. We must entrust ourselves to Him, believing that He is faithful in every good thing, in His good time. When we leave this earthly tent and enter into God’s presence, we will be completely whole.
Revelation 21:1-5, the greatest promise for God’s beloved is this:
“Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,” for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!”
The final promise from Revelation 22:20,
“He who testifies to these things says, ‘Yes, I am coming soon.’ Amen. Come, Lord Jesus!”