For years, I prayed the same prayer, yet it seemed to go unanswered. Until now, but now it will go on without me.
As I laid my head to rest one night after yet another exhausting, discouraging day. I had been asked to do something, I desired to do for along time, but it is something that will require great sacrifice and fear. Something, I will probably not even see the end result. Causing me to ask the questions: “Do You see me, Lord? Do You even hear what I’m saying? Do you know how hard this is? Do You know what’s happening? Do you know what I am about to do? Are you directing me Lord?” Then moments later, I felt a desire to read the story of Hagar.
13 She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen[a] the One who sees me.” 14 That is why the well was called Beer Lahai Roi[b]; it is still there, between Kadesh and Bered. Genesis 16:13-14
This surprised me because, as my ex-husband filed for divorce he said to me “Like Hagar, the Lord has taken you out of our marriage, for my ministry.” Although, I knew this was not biblical, it still hurt and made me feel ashamed……until recently. As, I was reading and meditating on the word, The Lord lead me to this passage. Immediately, it released a flood of emotion in me. I realized, the Lord was speaking to me about my present situation.
Hagar was forsaken by the very one who forced her into her circumstances. She found herself alone in the wilderness, and yet God saw her, God noticed her. An angel of God called to Hagar and said to her, “What’s the matter, Hagar? Do not be afraid; God has heard the boy crying as he lies there. Lift the boy up and take him by the hand, for I will make him into a great nation.” God then opened Hagar’s eyes “and she saw a well of water.That is why she named the well “the living one that sees me”
Here we see a beautiful example of the Lord’s heart towards Hagar. I am so thankful for her example, where before I felt shame. There have been so many times, I have felt like her. Feeling forgotten, invisible, abandoned and wanting to hide from people and the circumstances that I have found myself in. Just as she was forsaken by the very person who forced her into her situation, and found herself alone in the wilderness, after my divorce, I felt the same.
God wanted me to know this; “I see you, I have noticed you and all that you have been through, I am with you always.” Just as Hagar named that well “the Living One who sees me” this is confirmation that the Lord see’s our pain, and our sorrow. The Lord had given me a message of hope in the hurtful words my husband had spoken. Being put in this situation by his abuse, at no fault of my own. I found myself alone in the wilderness of life, just like Hagar. I was forsaken, invisible and hurt by a man, I loved for 20 years.
“As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.” Genesis 50:20
My heart was touched at the thought of hearing from my heavenly Father in such a sweet and gentle way. In the midst of running the universe, God saw fit to remind me that just because I didn’t yet know how He was at work in this present situation, it didn’t mean He didn’t know exactly what was happening. And that He alone was in control.
But, I can tell you this, there’s no greater joy than seeing throughout Scripture that the Lord deeply cares about what we’re going through. Hope and peace can be ours when we believe that in God’s timing and in His ways, He will answer.
This late-night encounter with God helped me refocus on my faith and remember that I can trust him fully, no matter how He desires to answer my prayer. As difficult as your current storm may be, you are not alone. God is with you always. He loves you, and cares about what is going on in your life. He hears your cries and sees your pain. Moreover, He understands. God is there … loving you beyond understanding, holding you up, and making a way where it seems there is no way. Reach out for Him today. He is a very present help in times of trouble
You know how troubled I am; you have kept a record of my tears. Psalm 56:8
The Lord was faithful to me, I desperately, needed to know, in whatever small way, that he sees me. That He knew what I was going through. That He sees me as I wrestle with my own shame and inadequacies. I needed to know that He was acquainted with my weakness, fear and grief. And he met me right when I needed Him most. Hallelujah, He is a good and faithful Father.
What about you? Are you weary? Are you like Hagar alone, frightened and with no hope? Remember Hagar, a woman loved by God, whose child was cared for, a woman who had not escaped the notice of a loving God. And either will you!
Always Remember “the God who sees.” Because, you can take comfort in knowing, You have a “God who sees” as well.
Lord, help me remember You not only know what is happening in my life, but You have a plan. Fill me with peace and the ability to trust You as I wait. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
“The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, and his ears are attentive to their cry;” Psalm 34:15