My God Is Faithful!

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2 Thess 3:3 the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one

As I have shared my testimony with all of you, you know I have been going through a very painful divorce, that I did not want.  I also have an auto-immune system disease that is aggravated by stress.  My recent tests have revealed I have a lot of pre-cancer cells in my esophagus and stomach.  During a recent doctor’s appointment, I received a stern warning to get my stress and anxiety under control or you will die.

So, he referred me to a counselor, because of my insurance I was not able to pick who I wanted to see.  My desire was to talk to a bible teaching Christian counselor, but because I was under obligation to I made an appointment.

So, I am thinking..ok..I will go talk and see what she say’s, really wanting a Christian. Thinking a secular counselor will probably think I am crazy!  So, I walk in and she is a beautiful woman with a glow about her. She immediately say’s to me “are you a believer?” I smiled and said “yes”…she say’s “ok..great what is your walk like”? Do you have a problem relating to God as your loving Heavenly Father because of your fatherlessness and abuse issues?  “You realize at the heart of all these issues is your relationship with him.”  She continues “Peace comes to us after we have made a full surrender of everything and everyone in our lives.”  So, needless, to say the next hour and a half..was SUCH a Blessing! He is so Faithful to meet us RIGHT where we are at!! He goes before us and prepares the way, He knew I needed more than a secular counselor could offer me.  I believe he hand picked her just for me.

Then another Godly woman, a pastor’s wife I met years ago, (where my ex-husband guest spoke at in Whittier), gave me a verse out of the blue:

 “Neither do I concern myself with great matters, Nor with things too profound for me.” (Ps 131:1)

I realized through this verse, I do not have to figure out why he divorced me.  Or why he found someone else.  I just have to lean in and Trust my Heavenly Father to deliver me from my hurt and pain.  After all, He loves me more than any earthly person can!

Getting over my hurt will be a struggle, But after today,  I am excited because I know I will have Victory and wait with anticipation for what the Lord has for me!

Father, everyone and everything in my life is turned over to you for your control! Father, you know it is easier to say, then live, but I want to learn to live the lifestyle that will honor you and bless you…I want my life to bring you glory, help me, Lord. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Hallelujah and Amen.